God is so so good

life sucks but god is good. i constintly run in to people who are eaten up by the world. good people, some who dont belive anything at all. others who belive in something. then there are the ones that make my heart cry. pople who say they belive in god. belive in jesus christ and practice all the practice. they do church. but they lake any hope. they may b eable to have some sort of "fruit". good deeds that make them look good. but some of them, who are friends. hurt me becasue they lack in compassion and joy. i dont belive some pole have compasion and others dont. i belive none of us has true compasion untill we meet jesus christ.
Also, this week has been a week of milestones. me really see god concure some of the fear in my life. i have such a peace right now about things at work and home that is all aobut god. Also tuseday night was the gathering at robs house. God spoke. we were indeweld by the living god that night. i feel like there was a shift. form all aobut me and me in comparison to god. to all about god. god moved. he moved in my heart. god alwed me to worship freely. then god alowed to really start talk about jesus with ke'arus. and building a relationship with the family/ god alowed me to share with some coworkers my story and about jesus. god is good. even in a world that seems to suck god is goood. I still have things that hurt. god right now is really just impressing me to reconect with some people and heal some old wounds.
thursday i had a chance to worship agian. see some pole who were very influnceal in my life when i came back to little rock broken and devesated. God is good

Wow god is good....

This scripture has come up alot this week..


Psalm 51
10 Create in me a clean heart, O God;
and renew a right spirit within me.
11 Cast me not away from thy presence;
and take not thy holy spirit from me.
12 Restore unto me the joy of thy salvation;
and uphold me with thy free spirit.
13 Then will I teach transgressors thy ways;
and sinners shall be converted unto thee.
14 Deliver me from bloodguiltiness,
O God, thou God of my salvation:
and my tongue shall sing aloud of thy righteousness.
15 O Lord, open thou my lips;
and my mouth shall spew forth thy praise.
16 For thou desirest not sacrifice;
else would I give it: thou delightest not in burnt offering.
17 The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit:
a broken and a contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise.
18 Do good in thy good pleasure unto Zion:
build thou the walls of Jerusalem.
19 Then shalt thou be pleased with the sacrifices of righteousness,
with burnt offering and whole burnt offering:
then shall they offer bullocks upon thine altar

this is my life verse. God has brought me out from being broken and crying out to him. I have fallen down and he picked me back up. God is awesome. Tonight I had the great opportunity to teach others form my own mistake about forgiveness and honesty and love. That thrills my soul. I have struggled with fear and dought this week . How I don't feel like god is using me to my fullest. Being really selfish. God grabbed me Tuesday night and humbled me. Put me in a place that I could only look up and tonight he then used me. That bless my soul. Don't you love being used by god? It really is a god thing. I look at that scripture and only praises can spew form my lips. How he delivered me. Like the song says
"In Christ alone will I glory
Though I could pride myself in battles won
For I’ve been blessed beyond measure
And by His strength alone I’ll overcome
Oh, I could stop and count successes like diamonds in my hands
But those trophies could not equal to the grace by which I stand
Chorus:In Christ aloneI place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victoryLet it be said of me
My source of strength
My source of hope
Is Christ alone
In Christ alone do I glory
For only by His grace alone I am redeemed
For only His tender mercy
Could reach beyond my weakness to my need
And now I seek no greater honor in just to know Him more
And to count my gains but losses to the glory of my Lord

It is only him I am hear today.. throught my weakness in both mind and body it is all his glory
I am fearfuly and wonderfully made

wow god is good....

chapter 2

Chapter 2
All his life all Salvador wanted was to be successful, that was all. He grew up poor like most of his people. If you were born in to a poor family in any south American country you usually stayed poor. That is why he took the job in Chicago. He took the job on blind faith. He was approached by an individual in a gray mask. That should have tipped him of that this job was going to introduce him to things he never wanted to experience. The problem was that the money was too good to be true. The money came just like they promised too. The problem was that his heart grew as dark as his bank account grew large. Salvador was not his real name. Everyone who became a member of the green dragons took a number and left there name on the floor. When you achieved a rank you took a code name so you could be recognized from the plan foot solders. When he reached the rank of grand captain in the green dragon crime corporation. He thought it was ironic that he would call himself a savior when he was really not saving anyone. Instead of saving he was damming people to death or a heart as black as his.
It had been ten years since he was a young 18 year old new to the city. Now he had been places and done things he would never have dreamed up. Not even in his worst nightmare. Not only had he seen some of the worlds most beautiful places and romanced some of the worlds most beautiful women. He had a lot of innocent blood on his hands also. Blood from both the innocent and the not so innocent. Blood that belong to people from all over the world. Not only had Salvador killed hundreds he had also enlisted young men and women to do the same. Because of him he had seen the green dragons grow in leaps and bounds. Know he was on the edge of taking control of an entire market. Or so he thought. That was until about 2 years ago when jade. The dragon commander had come back to the states with the grand council. Chicago was going t be his. That was what he was promised. Now he was striped of his power because jade wanted to move the head of the operation form Hong Kong to Chicago. With Hong Kong belong to the British the heat was to much. The American government had no clue who the green dragon were. They had started in Japan. And still had several assets in the country. When jades father took over the green dragons. They moved there main head quarters to Hong Kong. With an office in Tokyo and an office in London and one in Chicago. When Salvador made grand captain he was promised the head of the city. With jade here. All the power was now with him and with jade and the council. He was really nothing. Jade promised him a seat on the council. As an equal. When they moved from the orient. That did not happen. Salvador was put on little mission to out of the way places. Or put in charge of facilities like this one that were unknown and unneeded.
This facility was so unnessary. It was a information processing plant. It held about a million dollors worth of computer and other electronic equipment. The staf was several scientist and some armed guards. He had visted this facility several times to see what was there purpose. He was so curious why you would take an old factory and spend money to make it a sate of the art facility. The security messures were not top of the line. They did not need to be. The front gate had an old push button gate mechenisum with two hidden camras on each side. The fence had barbed wire on top and a a 8 foot dich on the inside. It had no large locks or seen cameras. That would have seemed to conspicuous. The key lock was good enough security for the gate. No one could get a copy of the key. He knew that ozone knew he was there yet. So he made sure the black boxes were in the right place. He then walked back to his car and put the almost empty bag on his car hood as he grabbed the second bag and took another deep breath. He stepped up to the door and inserted his key. A monitor came out of a hidden slot. A black masked figure came on the screen and a raspy voice spoke over the intercom.
“captain Salvador. We did not expect you for another two days sir. This is a surprise. “
“I know 423, but things have changed and I needed to move up my visit. I have an important meeting with the council in a couple of days.”
The voice was silent then after a few mintuies it came back on.
“that is a confermation on the change in schedual. We have been updating the net work, it looks like we had not recived you schedule visit till this morning, sorry for the unconvince sir.”
“that is ok,423, we have to go by the system.”
“yes sir, the system will uphold and the green dragon will endure.”
“yes” Salvador thought” the green dragon will endure.”

What a week

It has been a week. It has had its up and its downs. Coming off of a great weekend. I was not sure what to expect. Monday and Tuesday were long and tiring. Coming off of spring break and back in to school. It has been interesting we are winding down the year and preparing for next year. We have a meeting soon to plan our schedule. I am excited to see what god is doing. He is just pouring his love on me showing me how unique and special I am. I love that so much. I have so much going on up here right now. Not sure how much I want to reveal. God is working and that is awesome. God is extremely good and right and just good.

wow
what a weekend and what a week so far. God is good. i just felt so recharged this weekend. i feel like i am being pluged back in to the body of christ. so far school has been good. ke'arus was tierd yesterday but i today back to normal. there is such a connection there i cant wait till i get to share christ with him. and also seeing doors wiht coworkers i have not seen before.
the one thing i have seen as a connection is everyone i have read and talked to aobut the weekend has been about the stories of everyone. all about seeing how the body of christ works that is so so cool. also gave me a desier to write more that is awsome too. i want to put up my story about patchwork when it is done. i think it is a great testomony to how christ can use us.