there she blows a long post

this is probibly going to be longer than most. this has ust been a good week. it is so funny. when i tell people that i am goign to work two jobs for a while both working with special needs kids. most people make the comment that i am going to burn out. which i just smile. see i belive god has given me a heart of a care giver. i belive that is something god has gifted me with. i take care of special needs kids and i feel like i am not doing a thing. it is what i was created for. it is so natural that i execert no energy. that is a god thing. there are still peces of this puzzel i do not see or understand. like futhering my education. i do not know where that fits in to this picture but that is ok. i have dreams i am strugling to understand and see what god desires. having a relationship is one of them. that is a strugle. but as i told a good friend last night. i am ok with just being right know. just letting god be god.
lets what eles to talk about. ooo i know. i have been encouraged to write down some of my random thought. well here i go.
this week i have been thinking about redemption. how wounderful gods plan to recreat us back in to the full image of himself. how sin deformed that picture that god pantied. that redemtion is just a process of us being reformed in to the images that we were ment to be. i see that as a wounderful thing god does. it shows me how complex he is. here is god who is all powerful. he can creat waves and grow grass with the var breath that he takes. he can chose to orcastrate every move i make. he knows the movment of the very molicues in my body. he chose to let us decied what we want. that show me more power and strength and love that makeing us chose him. making us right. he wants us to learn and see his love and grace. is that not amazing. how wounderful god is. that redemtin is the perfect gift for an inperfect creater like me. that i am not a perfect creater at all but i am in process. i am learning what sin can do to a body as i age. and to a soul. that without christ i wouuld not just be nothing but i would be dieing. phisicly, emotionaly and spritualy. slowoly. hell is going to be bad for an unbeliver. but think about what they have to go thourh here on earth the lonlenss and pain. the absent of community. someone who does not accepct christ is dieng in there own hell now and will in eternity. so i thank god for redemption and hope to spred that redemption to others. i want everyone to see in me christ process of redemption. a life that is in process of being made perfect.

wow.. now it is picture time

these are radom pics i want to share
















our wounderful capitol building














a randow pinguin















Ke'arus lashawn Henderson...the coolest kid on wheels ever


















Desi and Mickey youngblood. my twins, they rock


well more pics to come and more random thought. have fun...

the good, the great and the just paln mundan

well it has been two weeks sence i have updated. well what to say

first the week of the boys was good. it was busy and kept me on my toes. it was fun, tiering and just plan hard. i had fun and learned some thing about me. one think one day i will be a good dad. i really took it in stride. i love those boys . it was tiering but rewarding.

School has started. it has been good. i just got in to the swing. i am so conviced god wants me in home health care with special needs. it is so fun taking care of special needs kids. it is just a joy i have.

what eles. .. starting to plan on my trip to disney world in december with jackie. it is for her 18th birthday . we are going for 8 days. i am excited.
also looking at the futcer. school, my own place., hopefuly in about a year. god is doing so much in my life.

so something serious.
right now i am amazed at the body of christ. it is awsome. i see know how many people see me as a brother in christ and a friend . it just happened. the body is amazing. people to love on me and just be real. the laughter the joy. i was thinking i have not really been growing in leaps and bounds recently. not haveing deep thoughts. just living life. then i relised i am maintaining agian. a place god has pput me before . it is a good place just living in god. see what he is doing. i am dewlling on his will what he wants me to do educationaly. more than anything i want to grow in friendships. get to know more people.

the week has begun

I am living at mickey and desi this week because there parents on out of town. i at first thought it was going to be fun. then as i was staying here last night anxity kicked in. i think it was i was in a new place with out my bed, not knowing what to expexct, i had heard stories about desi walking around in the moring and peaing in there bed but all went good. please pray for me this week. that theweek will go smoothly. no serious fits from the boys. the boys not missing there mom and trying to tear anythng up. sharon and warrwn to have a good time. safty and peace in my heart. thursady and friday i am supose to start at henderson but i am goign to stay with the boys. pray that i will not get in amy trouble at work becasue i belive i need to be here,. that everything goes smothly at work. that god will move and do a good thing this week.

well that i guess is it. just pray for my sanity..

God is good

This has been a good weekend.

there has been so much happen this weekend. Even as I am writeing this I am still just kind of sorting out everything that has happened.

I saw a really good movie this weekend. It is not often that you see a movie that is clean. Funny and just plan good. I took my sister out and we had a good time. I soent way to much money but that is ok. sunday was great.

I worked with mickey and desi and we had a good time. also got to connect with some folks. then bible study. i was not going to go. had really been feeling saturated by people. did not really want to do bible study. i decied to go. so i sat in my car at the parking lot of barns and noble and did my bible study . i did it half heartedly and a little begrugingly. sunday mornig was not good before church. i was having lots of issues. i lied to somone about not going to church so i would not have to pick them up. i was just being self indulgent and trying to ignor what god was telling me. well the thing is i could not ignor him. then god just showed up at bible study. we did study the bible. scripture just jumped out at me. that was so awsome. also just being with the body.

so many songs came to my head last night. but the one that touched me the most was shane and shaens song. when i think about the lord.
the whole verse about when he saved me when he rased me.

plus i had this little thing in my mind last night.


wounds

wounds heal
but it takes time
they just dont heal over night
you have to go to a profesional
someone who knows how to heal a wound properly
if you ingnor an open wound
that wound spreds,
it forms other sors and if ones not careful
you get an internal infect.
that infect does deep damage
heart damage
but with patiacnce, a little cleanesing, and a little medcation
you will be clean and pure again