i am reposting cause i can and want to

there is so so much i want to say today. this has been a week. it has been long and greusome at times. brains cells have died crude and painfull death. this week god has also been glorifed. what a week. work has been tough. it is the end of the year and everyone knows it. Ke'arus is ready for school to be out. so am i. i will miss him over the summer but ready for a break form school. also gearing up for a summer job. working with a set of twin boys who are authistic(i know that is not spelled right) it is goign to be real real fun. alot of activity this summer. i see all these peole leaving on mission trips and i am praying for them all. i feel lke my "mission" , that my "people group" is special needs kids . god is blessing me with opportuinty to help all kinds of people who are either special or work with or have special needs kids. it is a blessing. god is putting all kinds of cool people in my path. i still have issuse. right now it is just specifcis of this plan god has laiecd out. what questions are good to ask and what are selfish. where is god working and where is he not. what is sos os cool about it. god is putting people in my path that will walk along with me in tha. i also have people i can pour in to. one thing i am missing in someone to pour in to me. i really desier someone who is at least 10 years older than i am. and si a great listener and sounding board.
know the other thing that has been on my mind is my book. i have not had time to write like i have wanted to. i need pray to have time to write. the fiction book i am writeing means so so much to me. steven, the charicter i have created is so much a part of me. i lean so much from him. God is good. the fact i am writing about some one who deals with tradedy and pain. and how to not only survive that but to endure and overcome is so good. steven faces things i pray i will never have to face. a dath of a loved one. a death of a child. but to come through is victorous. i have taken all kinds of peoles stories and have poured in to steven all there charicteristics.Know to describe steven real quick. he is in his early 30s single pastor of an inner city church. he has dealt with alot of crap in his life. death and uncertianity. know he deals with his own morality and weakness. love is something he strugles with. whatis romantic love? how do you obtain and keep it? He also deals with how to protect his church and the poel he cares about from a sinful and evil world. gans , crime, deaht. how to balance all of tha and still be a man of god. he thinks he has found the way. to go out and take things in his own hands. to help with a stric code of non-violance and torlarance. but for how long can he wear a mask, save a city, be non violent and preach the gosple. while not losing his own soul. he is a torminted and passionte man.i am goign to start to put up more bioography later on. of other charicters.tell me what you think.
also want to put up some pray needs. one is that a young man in my sisters youth group had a really bad accedent. not to sure how bad. he has both arms broken and a leg not to sure what eles is wrong.also the new jo i am taking for the summer. they really need another guy to help. pray for that. god is so good. i say that alot. but it is so true.